It seems though as the days continue to pass, that I become more and more mellow about life. I’ve got so much on my mind, sometimes I worry what will happen to me. Sometimes, this is what happens to me when I watch too many romance anime. I’m such a weirdo…but that’s the way I am. Also, my mother has been getting mad at more things lately, that it scares me. My sister’s slumber party yesterday was okay; however she started saying things she shouldn’t have. Although it was subtle, it was enough to make me grit my teeth and light a fuse on my mother. Sometimes, I just wish I could walk outside with someone. The thing is, there’s only one person I would enjoy doing that with, however I don’t think I should. My mind is full of the future and what I want to do, however I never carry them out.

My parents have been going out more and more lately. I think this has something to do with my little inner wish that I’d be alone in the house more often. I didn’t really think it’d happen this soon. I just want to do something outside of my house a little more often, however I want to go out by myself. I feel like I have a chain on, that I myself put on. I guess it’s because of guilt. That’s why I hardly go to even my best friend’s house. Well, I don’t even know if I have truly a best friend. To summarize my rant, I have a yearning to be somewhere other than home. I guess I want to be alone a little…that way I can think this out by myself. Also, I’m corny enough to think that I’d find someone who would want to be around me, someone who’s not of my blood.

Lastly, I can’t help but stare at the picture that Ms. Fragile gave me. The picture looks so odd with me in it. I often find myself in denial for some odd reason. Perhaps it’s because I’m continuously stunned to think that I went to Homecoming with her. Not that we danced or anything (which made me feel like someone who couldn’t do anything, because I couldn’t dance), but it was fun. I don’t know how it works, but her smile is just something…

Really…I need a life.

I guess I should think more about this before I venture onward. So I hope that you guys have a good night.